I then departed. Okay for about 40 minutes. No rain. But then, it started. Pouring again. I started to cry. Whilst reaching for my glasses to take them off 😳😲😳😲 the fuck. I had left them next to the road. I immediately started heading back there at full gass. I was sure they would be gone. All sorts of thoughts. Why am I doing this trip. Why am I unemployed. Why do I keep making mistakes. The list is endless. I continued at full gass whilst crying. It was one of the worst moments I have had out here. Eventually after what seemed like hours I got to the exact spot I put them down. Holy 💩💩💩. They are still there. I was happy yet still extremely disappointed I had left them. My decision was to go to my spot in the forest and put up camp for the night. It was only 2pm but the rain was not going to stop and I was in a terrible head space.
As I already knew my tent leaks. So luckily while I was sitting in it freezing I was also bailing water out of it. Quite a sight. I am happy yesterday is done.
Today was slightly better. A good ride in wet clothes. As I sit here the only item left to completely dry are my 🧦. Everything else dried on the ride.
My bike has picked up an issue from riding in the rain. The BB is crunchy which means it is toast. So tomorrow it is back to Ceres to get that fixed. Today was hard. Mentally very very tough. Many questions and very few answers. I need to learn how to deal with this better. I get very frustrated and angry and I miss the reason for my trip. I am working on it.
Apart from all that I am good. It was supposed to be up to Greyton and then beyond. But with the weather I decided on a drier route. So be it. Once my bike is sorted I will see what my next move is.
Sorry for the negative post but I am a bit down at the moment. Things will improve. This I am sure. Just a few bad days!
The world is what we make it. No one else does the work. Sometimes good, sometimes not so much. It is important to know that when times are tough you just keep moving forward. Going back or sideways is a waste. Today was better than yesterday. Tomorrow will be better than today. It simply has to be.
I am very sad my bike is not working properly. I love it like a child. But tomorrow it will be fixed and the screaming will stop. (quite literally)
On these trips I take photos and try to capture what I see. They do no justice. Right now I am in my tent. Op die berg. Been here many times. It's a bush camp. The views are magnificent. This is why I do these trips. I am very very grateful that life allows me to.
I hope you are all well. Happy. Life is good.
Chat soon.
G.
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