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So wow home slices. 3 nights and 3 posts. That's more than i did when i was searching for water. By the way one day that search will start again. I cannot tell you the feeling i miss of being in nowhere looking for water. The freedom i had. No responsibilities no time frames but also no pay cheques 🤣. The day will come when i leave home on my bike and never return. Only to find my skeleton millions of years later in the most deserted area with my teeth showing a great smile.
Work is getting better by the day. I guess with every job you do the more you know the more you can do and the better you enjoy  it. I am and will getting to grips with it all and enjoying my 8 minute downhill ride to work. I have even walked on the odd occasion and still get to work in less time than it takes most people to get out their driveways.
My medication is also helping me cope. I don't wake up with a sore tummy anymore and my anxiety levels are about as low as the give a shit o meter for our government. I know can you Adam and Eve it...
It's a short one tonight as i don't think you care much for my menial tasks during the day so not much to post. My nights are not too exciting either. I will say that hopefully my diet is a bit better. 2 big packets of vegetables in 2 days. What the fuck right. Normally it is 2 packets of bacon with a side dish of bacon. God that sounds delicious.
Anyway home slices love you all and see y'all soon.
Peace.

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So as another day draws to an end i sit and think about the reason we are here. If ever anyone knows please be so kind as to tell me. I know my posts have become a little bit dark and maybe repetitive but the learnings of life are not to be underestimated. For each to their own and lessons understood. Too often do we simply make the same mistake without learning the meaning of it. Why? Am i not smart enough to learn. Am i the only one who does this? The question might even be as simple as is this even a mistake. Why does it keep coming at me. Why can i not clear the error and carry on. What could you possibly be trying to teach me. I guess i will find out soon enough. I kinda wish sometimes it was clearer than the merky water i am looking through. But alas. Good night friends. May the water be clearer in the morning.

Notes

I need to make notes for myself. I sit see and watch as this all unfolds. It has but been written for sometime. All that we desire and imagine can only take place if we allow. Nothing is by chance or accident. It is how we create the moment and define the action. Not only does it arrive at the exact moment it should it arrives in the exact correct quantity. Hard to digest and accept but if you do you shall understand how it all happened. This is a problem that we don't see. A small but very intricate and exact piece. It seems to be an unfair piece of the puzzle but we have designed it to this exact precision. I wish to change my move and go back 3 spaces but you can't. Time is not a system we have control over. Not yet anyway. I need this now to keep me in check. Make sure my moves and decisions are the right ones. I wish this for all of you too. Be patient but when you move make it count. It affects absolutely every single move from there forward. So keep that in your thoughts.

Back on

So i have decided to get this thing back going. A place to document my thoughts. I am in general an extremely personal and private person. I have always been that way. It suits me and i do well in my own world. In the last few weeks i have started another new job. I can't give you the reason why just yet. I hope it works out and i am keeping my head in the game. I have been through a lot of changes recently. I am on my own again. A feeling that has come welcomed. I need to work and try to get myself back to the fun Greg. He has been gone a while. I have lost track of a lot of things because the fighting got out of control. I am blamed for things i don't think are an issue. But hey it doesn't matter who where why what or how. It just matters to me that i rebuild myself on a stronger foundation.
To add to my news i am now on a drug called lexamil. It is a serotonin inhibitor and will help me through this period. I am in need of something to lift the cloud above me and this is the stuff. It should be at full working capacity in a week or two.
This is just a quick catch up but i want to get this little story going again as it helps me document and see my life. I will keep it up to date hopefully.
Anyways off for a nap now so chat soon.